Womb Healing Journey

Last year, I went to the emergency department because I had severe pain on my right side. I thought maybe my appendix had burst. They took an MRI and ultrasound and told me everything looked normal, that maybe a had a large bowel movement that needed to pass. I left the ER feeling a bit frustrated and honestly embarrassed for feeling the need to visit for a large poop 😳 The next day, I started my period.

Over the next few months, I noticed that this pain happened when I was ovulating and also the couple days before I started bleeding. I went in to see my primary physician because it had been over 7 years since my last Pap smear and check up. I told my doctor that I was having pain in what seemed to be my bladder, since the pain worsened when I had a full bladder. She suspected that I have endometriosis because it runs in my family and that the way to diagnosis it is to go under anesthesia and have laparoscopic surgery to diagnose and remove any lesions. For me, this didn’t seem like the starting point, but instead a last resort if other methods failed.

Over the last six months, I have had swollen and tender breasts, headaches, and bladder pain, but resisted diving into the journey of healing my womb. Finally, this month, I had nausea for about 2 weeks in the luteal phase of my cycle. It stopped me in my tracks when the waves would come over me, multiple times per day. I thought that maybe I had become pregnant. As I have shared in previous blog posts, I had postpartum depression after the birth of my son. My husband and I decided that we both wanted only one child after that experience. Twice since then, I had a late period and twice, since then, I had anxiety attacks. But this time, it was different. I didn’t feel scared about the prospect of pregnancy, though I honestly enjoy my life being a mom to one and being a tía to my sister’s two girls and friend’s children. It was so transforming to not feel scared of this prospect. I felt as if I was the Winter crone, rebirthing herself as a young child in the Spring. A layer of self being removed and let go of to make room for something new to flourish.

I was not pregnant, though I am grateful to endometriosis for allowing me to have this beautiful shedding. And I took this as a sign to continue my journey of womb healing.

I have been working with my indigenous Mexican teachings for the past year, and so I sought out a sobadora in San Diego. A sobadora is trained in traditional massage techniques including womb and abdominal massage. In my research, I learned that this massage will help break up scar tissue from the endometriosis and help detoxify the body. It can be paired with vaginal steam baths and herbal recommendations as well. I will be visiting Rebirth Massage in San Diego which I chose because of the good reviews and that the owner has learned this tradition as it was passed down in her family. I will be doing a health intake first, which for me I think is important to get herbs and massage tailored exactly to the symptoms that are presenting.

I also signed up for a 9 week online course called Conscious Moonstration through Blood Moon Healing. We had our first drop in call yesterday and I am already seeing things fall into place spiritually and emotionally. I think it is so important to approach a wellness journey through the lens of all bodies: the physical body, soul body (mind and heart), and the spirit body because we are all parts and when one is not in alignment, we move through disease. I am writing my womb story, learning about the moon cycles outside and inside my body, the archetypes and different tonal (energies) throughout the cycles. This too will bring in ancestral indigenous knowledge from Anahuak (Mexico).

I will continue to share here my experience with the modalities and what I am working through if you would like to follow my journey. Sending you much love if you are on your own womb healing journey. Thank you for listening.